Dear fragile soul
You are not meant to understand
There are plently things you will never know
You will fall, you will win
There are times you will fail before you even begin
Days will hurt
You will run
As hard as it is
There will be fun
And you will love
you will lose
the skies will be grey and blue
beyond the edges of this vast world
endless at that
you will be loved for real
if you can only learn how to feel
the answers are not all there
you cannot solve every riddle
Walk this soil full of that burning desire
and that heart you guard,
someday you’ll learn to share
let that sunlight warm the parts of you that hide
there’s hope out there waiting
but mostly it’s inside
It’s only been a few days since I re-introduced exercise back into my life and already the difference I feel is so significant. Two strong days at the gym and some yoga today at home. While it’s important to get in a gym routine, I believe it’s just as important to be able to work out in some way in your home. For me, it’s especially essential for when classes start again and my free time completely disappears.
On top of daily exercise, I am doing everything I can to feel good about myself every day. I have started taking vitamins again (extra important for vegetarians), drinking 3L of water a day, cooking healthy whole food meals/eating less crap, documenting the days in my journal, recording my calories again, 10-minute meditations every morning, blasting music and dancing around the apartment when the roommates aren’t here (although I’m sure they wouldn’t mind), and making sure I focus on all the things that make me happy. I even made a list so I can make sure I do these things!!!
The point of all of this? Exercise is important! Everything I’ve learned in school so far has verified that exercise fights disease, improves blood flow, reduces stress, etc etc etc. Plus, endorphins are MAGICAL! I already knew this, of course. Sometimes though, I just need an extra kick in the ass. Seriously.
I’m really looking forward to sharing the next steps of my journey here. I hope there are people out there reading! If you are, please comment so I can share in your adventures as well.
***The list is as follows:
- Exercise: yoga, running, hiking, dancing
- Site seeing
- Traveling/exploring new places
- Eating Healthy
- Watching the sunrise/sunset
- Capturing moments through photography
- Getting A’s on my tests/papers/classes
- The Ocean
As soon as I walked in the door, I felt at home. It was in that moment, I realized what my life has been missing. The sweat, the burn, the weight, the pain, the struggle, the challenge, making the impossible possible. Goals. Hard work. Progress.
I ran on and off for thirty minutes on the treadmill. In intervals, of course, because I am so far from where I used to be. I felt it though. The power in that moment transported me right back to the day I ran 8 miles for the first time, an unbelievable milestone in my life. Those endorphins brought me back to life. Things have been dark, but there are always better things coming. It’s up to me to make them happen.
I was glowing when I walked back out into the cold New York City air.
I’m back and I’m better. There will be great things.